An Entry For Reflection...

It has been awhile since i "need" to write down an entry...

Taking the title from my Nana... "Having your own home.." But mine might not be as sweet as hers...Where shld i start??

Ok...Moving into a new place where I know I'll have the privacy & quietness that I need for my rest every night...Spending some time to slowly do the housework..(which i thought it will be fun doing it..) Laying down on the sofa, reading my favourite books or just flipping the magazine... But now, I'm scare of the quietness which I'll rather named it as Silence...When I reach home in the evening, it's S.I.L.E.N.C.E. I can hear myself singing to myself to create some human noise...even when he's back from his work, it's still ME making most of the noise...

U see, I can fully understand the S.T.R.E.S.S. that he's going thru' right now...Due to his new job at OCBC, he's doing SME Sales...See the word S.A.L.E.S...it means there's T.A.R.G.E.T. & D.E.M.A.N.D. which is also why initially chose not to tell him 'bout how lonely i felt...

My Place is @ Thomson with my ever loving Mummy & Daddy...Talkative Brother & GF(QingYi)...& oso my cheerful house helper Mercy...My Place @ Thomson is full of greens as my Dad is a self-claim gardener...full of good food b'cos Mum is the chief cook and Mercy is the assistant cook...Brother & QingYi will the laughters at home...I'm very used to the environment like that...We talk loudly, laugh louder...We played card games together to win our Dad's $$$ but he's always luckier to win our $$$ instead...During soccer match, we'll "Boo~~~" & "Cheer~~~" together as a F.A.M.I.L.Y.

Things now at our P@D are getting better, he made me understand that what happen now is a change...We are building our own family just like what's happening at Thomson...My Mummy & Daddy went thru' the same quietness when they just started...We are now talking very much...He's also sharing lots of info bout his new job with me...

F.A.M.I.L.Y. - We are trying very hard now...

Kiss the Rain (Yiruma)

很多年前，我相信爱情，爱对了人，就会天长地久。
很多年后，我明白有些事有些人，仅仅能成为纪念。
爱在现实面前，最终选择的是沉默。
当一个女人把生命中最灿烂，最耀眼的光阴付出给等待时。
才会彻彻底的明白。
...有些人注定只是相遇，相恋，
而相守却是可望而不可及。
有一种爱明明是深爱，却说不出来。
有一种爱明明想放弃，却无法放弃。
有一种爱明知是煎熬，却又躲不开。
有一种爱明知无前路，心却早已收不回来。
在我们的世界里，你伤地我好深好深好深。
我也想快乐一点，但你留给我的只有无尽的伤害和等待。
我以为你会懂我的用心,你却把我的用心当做你伤害的资本
心里有万般的委屈，得到的不是暖暖的安慰。
你给的伤害发现已经无法用言语。
我很疼很疼很疼很疼很疼很疼很疼，
好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼。
你知道吗？你明白吗？你懂吗？

所以，爱情，请一路走好。。。

It's already half year gone......

using my right hand,counting to 5...i know i know, another 5mths will b our 1st Wedding Anniversary...
ever since CNY'10...everybody have been asking...(asking 'bout wat???)

YES!!!asking 'bout our parenthood schedules...I repeating it: We are taking it easy...

But looking at it, it's nice to be in a family of 5...seriously, if it not too tight on us financially...I'M EVER READY TO HAVE 4KIDS...

It will be great if we are able to have a mix of boys & girls...as long as they 相亲相爱 (siblings love)...(健康，开心，乖乖，听话。。。） 可爱，美美，帅帅，有人缘, 聪明 will be a bonus la... =P

Recipes to Share....

Do you have the recipes for a happy marriage???

.....................1] start with a big bowl of TRUST!!!

..........2] pour in a cupful of PATIENCE!!!

.....................3] add a dash of FORGIVENESS!!!

........4] stir in a spoonful of KINDNESS!!!

.................5] sprinkle a handful of ENCOURAGEMENT!!!

..6] sweeten with plenty of COUPLE TIME!!!

..................7] throw in some slices of APPRECIATION!!!

..........8] spice it up with lots of SURPRISES!!!

...9] top it all with a generous serving of PASSION!!!

DA-Dah~~~ And a Happy Marriage is right beside you...

Stepping into the stage of being a man's wife, it's a lot more than what a girlfriend need to do. The above list is really what you need to practice on a daily basis. You see, knowing it is 1 thing and doing it is totally a different issue.

One important thing is COMMUNICATION, and i don't mean the lady doing the talking till she hit her daily 50000 - 80000 words quota. Although generally the girls tend to talk more than the guys. For Mr & Mrs Chua, communication is sharing our dreams, and also tally our future we want to see and strike a balance from there. I have a very logical hubby and I'm a "fairy-tales -do-exist" wife, add us together there's *LOGICAL FAIRY TALE*..hehehe~~~ Talking 'bout our daily activity over dinner(sounds boring huh?), but making the effort to know what's going on his side will let you understand his reason of being so moody & touchy, likewise for him. It will reduce the quarrel statistic.

Another big word in relationship will be EXPECTATION. Normally... ...
we will hear complains like:

• The sobbing lady continued her sentence with a soft voice, "I didn't expect him to be so unromantic/unsentimental..."
• "Oh man, I didn't expect that woman at home is so demanding." said that agitated guy to his group of friends.

I would only comment "Set Realistic Expectation"...

Example: Guys, don't expect us to be not naggy... hahahaha!!!

In this Concrete Jungle...

*Blowing away the thick layer of dust...*
Oh...it's March already...so it's a quarter of the year GONE...
which also means that I'm a year older...soon...I'm young at heart, "steel"...hehehe...
This year, we are going to celebrate our birthday as Mr & Mrs Chua...

AND WE ARE GOING TO UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE!!!

Back to the Title:---

In this concrete jungle, all living things here is a transforming robot...Everything is computerized with instruction to follow... That's so sad isn't it??

I have to say that I'm already used to this robot life...We are all having a new accessories on us...That's a Masquerade Mask...Some of us do have a multiple layers of masks so that we can change & create a new identity whenever there's a new group of peeps...

I wonder the reason for us doing it...and my reason for it must be - hiding the insecurities of my imperfections...

There are moments when i really hate the mask on my face...The effort to peel out the mask on my face was a struggle...These are the times when i choose to keep quiet n be alone...and i choose to believe that the mask has overcome us and became our identity...

And I start to ponder: Is the masks there for the different stages of life???And how true am i towards all my love ones around me??? or....

Has the mask becomes us as we becomes our mask???

I'm so proud of you...

The only job I want ish to be a Pilot...My bestie told me...and from that day onwards, i know he's going to be...

His dream came true...He called Chua's Family last week and told us bout his interview...And his schedule for his training...From his laughter when i disturbed him with the usual "Wa~wa~WAH~~~Pilot si bo~~" We can sense his joy & excitement...We hide abit of our sadness cos it's hard to part with some1 that shares everything with us...But we are really proud of him...

加油，加油，加油！！！*Screaming our lungs out~~~*

He got his career above the rest and got what it takes to be close to the clouds...

I love this....

"You may not always see me but you will always feel me...I am here for a

HIGHER PURPOSE..."

恭喜发财！！！ 发啊！！！

Chinese New Year ish coming soon...This year 初一 ish also Valentine's Day... ♥♥♥

This year, it's quite different for Our Chua's Family because we are going to give Ang Baos...The Joy of Giving...

I've learnt how to bake Suuper Yummy Pineapple Tarts...And Mr Chua ish so proud of me... =)

Recipes to share:

- Pineapples

- Brown Rock Sugar

- White Rock Sugar

Grate all the pineapples...There will be alot of juice after grating...

I've tried squeezing the juice and use only the pulp, but the end result the pineapple was too dry...

So instead, i boiled the pineapples, brown & white rock sugar over a slow fire...Stirring all the time until the juice ish almost dried up...(not too dry arh)

Stirring also prevent the pineapple from being burned...because once it's burned the pineapple will have a bitter taste...

Leave it aside to keep it cool...

- 1kg plain flour

- 500g butter

- 4 egg yolks

- 2 teaspoon baking powder

- 4 teaspoon vanilla essence

- Ice water if required

Cut cold butter into the plain flour...

Rub until the mixture become crumbs...

Add the Vanilla Essense n egg yolks to the crumbs...

Massage the mixture until it's form into a dough...(add ice water if the dough ish too dry arh)

Bake the end product for 200C for about 15 to 25 mins...