22 September 2010

A new change






"the young do not know enough to

be prudent, and therefore they attempt
the impossible -- and achieve it,
generation after generation."




this sentence got me stop for a moment... maybe i should just go ahead with my dream career although the new measures set by our PAP will definitely affect the property market... but i really have to give a try this time round... thinking too much may just lead me to miss the boat again...

So so-yaya ish really going to move out of my current comfort zone and make it BIG... =)

02 September 2010

說了再見就真的不能后悔

天涼了 雨下了 你走了
清楚了 我愛的 遺失了
落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

想要放 放不掉 淚在飄
你看看 你看看 不到
我假裝過去不重要 卻發現自己辦不到

說了再見 才發現再也見不到
我不能就這樣失去你的微笑
口紅待在桌腳 而你我找不到
若角色對調你說好不好

說了再見 才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老 永恒往哪裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

你的笑 你的好
腦海裡 一直在繞
我的手 忘不了 你手的溫度
心碎了一地 撿不回
從前的心跳 身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見 才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老 永恒往哪裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

31 August 2010

An Entry For Reflection...

It has been awhile since i "need" to write down an entry...

Taking the title from my Nana... "Having your own home.." But mine might not be as sweet as hers...Where shld i start??

Ok...Moving into a new place where I know I'll have the privacy & quietness that I need for my rest every night...Spending some time to slowly do the housework..(which i thought it will be fun doing it..) Laying down on the sofa, reading my favourite books or just flipping the magazine... But now, I'm scare of the quietness which I'll rather named it as Silence...When I reach home in the evening, it's S.I.L.E.N.C.E. I can hear myself singing to myself to create some human noise...even when he's back from his work, it's still ME making most of the noise...

U see, I can fully understand the S.T.R.E.S.S. that he's going thru' right now...Due to his new job at OCBC, he's doing SME Sales...See the word S.A.L.E.S...it means there's T.A.R.G.E.T. & D.E.M.A.N.D. which is also why initially chose not to tell him 'bout how lonely i felt...

My Place is @ Thomson with my ever loving Mummy & Daddy...Talkative Brother & GF(QingYi)...& oso my cheerful house helper Mercy...My Place @ Thomson is full of greens as my Dad is a self-claim gardener...full of good food b'cos Mum is the chief cook and Mercy is the assistant cook...Brother & QingYi will the laughters at home...I'm very used to the environment like that...We talk loudly, laugh louder...We played card games together to win our Dad's $$$ but he's always luckier to win our $$$ instead...During soccer match, we'll "Boo~~~" & "Cheer~~~" together as a F.A.M.I.L.Y.

Things now at our P@D are getting better, he made me understand that what happen now is a change...We are building our own family just like what's happening at Thomson...My Mummy & Daddy went thru' the same quietness when they just started...We are now talking very much...He's also sharing lots of info bout his new job with me...

F.A.M.I.L.Y. - We are trying very hard now...

27 August 2010

Kiss the Rain (Yiruma)

很多年前,我相信爱情,爱对了人,就会天长地久。
很多年后,我明白有些事有些人,仅仅能成为纪念。
爱在现实面前,最终选择的是沉默。
当一个女人把生命中最灿烂,最耀眼的光阴付出给等待时。
才会彻彻底的明白。
...有些人注定只是相遇,相恋,
而相守却是可望而不可及。
有一种爱明明是深爱,却说不出来。
有一种爱明明想放弃,却无法放弃。
有一种爱明知是煎熬,却又躲不开。
有一种爱明知无前路,心却早已收不回来。
在我们的世界里,你伤地我好深好深好深。
我也想快乐一点,但你留给我的只有无尽的伤害和等待。
我以为你会懂我的用心,你却把我的用心当做你伤害的资本
心里有万般的委屈,得到的不是暖暖的安慰。
你给的伤害发现已经无法用言语。
我很疼很疼很疼很疼很疼很疼很疼,
好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼好疼。
你知道吗?你明白吗?你懂吗?

所以,爱情,请一路走好。。。

06 July 2010

It's already half year gone......

using my right hand,counting to 5...i know i know, another 5mths will b our 1st Wedding Anniversary...
ever since CNY'10...everybody have been asking...(asking 'bout wat???)

YES!!!asking 'bout our parenthood schedules...I repeating it: We are taking it easy...

But looking at it, it's nice to be in a family of 5...seriously, if it not too tight on us financially...I'M EVER READY TO HAVE 4KIDS...

It will be great if we are able to have a mix of boys & girls...as long as they 相亲相爱 (siblings love)...(健康,开心,乖乖,听话。。。) 可爱,美美,帅帅,有人缘, 聪明 will be a bonus la... =P

01 April 2010

Recipes to Share....

Do you have the recipes for a happy marriage???

.....................1] start with a big bowl of TRUST!!!

..........2] pour in a cupful of PATIENCE!!!

.....................3] add a dash of FORGIVENESS!!!

........4] stir in a spoonful of KINDNESS!!!

.................5] sprinkle a handful of ENCOURAGEMENT!!!

..6] sweeten with plenty of COUPLE TIME!!!

..................7] throw in some slices of APPRECIATION!!!

..........8] spice it up with lots of SURPRISES!!!

...9] top it all with a generous serving of PASSION!!!


DA-Dah~~~ And a Happy Marriage is right beside you...

Stepping into the stage of being a man's wife, it's a lot more than what a girlfriend need to do. The above list is really what you need to practice on a daily basis. You see, knowing it is 1 thing and doing it is totally a different issue.

One important thing is COMMUNICATION, and i don't mean the lady doing the talking till she hit her daily 50000 - 80000 words quota. Although generally the girls tend to talk more than the guys. For Mr & Mrs Chua, communication is sharing our dreams, and also tally our future we want to see and strike a balance from there. I have a very logical hubby and I'm a "fairy-tales -do-exist" wife, add us together there's *LOGICAL FAIRY TALE*..hehehe~~~ Talking 'bout our daily activity over dinner(sounds boring huh?), but making the effort to know what's going on his side will let you understand his reason of being so moody & touchy, likewise for him. It will reduce the quarrel statistic.

Another big word in relationship will be EXPECTATION. Normally... ...
we will hear complains like:
  • The sobbing lady continued her sentence with a soft voice, "I didn't expect him to be so unromantic/unsentimental..."
  • "Oh man, I didn't expect that woman at home is so demanding." said that agitated guy to his group of friends.
I would only comment "Set Realistic Expectation"...

Example: Guys, don't expect us to be not naggy... hahahaha!!!

25 March 2010

In this Concrete Jungle...

*Blowing away the thick layer of dust...*
Oh...it's March already...so it's a quarter of the year GONE...
which also means that I'm a year older...soon...I'm young at heart, "steel"...hehehe...
This year, we are going to celebrate our birthday as Mr & Mrs Chua...

AND WE ARE GOING TO UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE!!!

Back to the Title:---

In this concrete jungle, all living things here is a transforming robot...Everything is computerized with instruction to follow... That's so sad isn't it??

I have to say that I'm already used to this robot life...We are all having a new accessories on us...That's a Masquerade Mask...Some of us do have a multiple layers of masks so that we can change & create a new identity whenever there's a new group of peeps...

I wonder the reason for us doing it...and my reason for it must be - hiding the insecurities of my imperfections...

There are moments when i really hate the mask on my face...The effort to peel out the mask on my face was a struggle...These are the times when i choose to keep quiet n be alone...and i choose to believe that the mask has overcome us and became our identity...

And I start to ponder: Is the masks there for the different stages of life???And how true am i towards all my love ones around me??? or....

Has the mask becomes us as we becomes our mask???